I Am Back...... To Be Better

July 06, 2017

Firstly let me say thank you for being patient and sticking with me through this transformation journey. Small as it is, it is something I have been wanting to do for a while now.

Early last month, I sat down rethinking the vision of where I want to see this blog becoming in the next 2 years or so; that is where I feel sindisosdiary as a brand must be. I needed to change a few things that I was starting to feel like they were no longer working. I have been working on improving the blog; i.e. content and the navigation of the site. I hope you like what you are seeing so far. There are a few things that are still in the works please just bear with me.

I hope you welcome the changes you are seeing on the blog for now. However today I want to share a little bit about what I feel has been holding me back from being a better me. Life and growth is a journey and a way of life that we all have to go through. With that said, I am no exception so I have to go through the system/process in order to be better but I come with the challenge of being my own worst enemy. I can be the worst critic to myself, sometimes on things that should not even matter. I do not doubt for one bit that it is caused by the constant need and urge to be a success story; many a times I am also comparing myself to my peers. How many of us can say we never compare ourselves to our peers or counterparts? As much as this is also a part of the process, when does one say enough is enough because I feel there is a point where when reached, it can dampen or break your spirit.

I was taking stock of where I am in my life and where I thought I should have been. I broke down and cried to be quite honest. I felt I should have been at least a mile ahead of where I am now. But what I failed to realize was that my life is in line with where God wants me to be. Had it not been so, I would have been elsewhere. It took a conversation with the inner me to realize that I am not even worse off than where I think I should be. But why was I being over critical of me? Is it pressures of life and the fact that internally I have been comparing myself? The good thing is that I have acknowledged that I do have a problem but it is not the end of the world. I am a work in progress and so is everything else in my life.

How have you dealt with this situation if you were ever in the situation?
Thanks for stopping by as always.